14.8.11

Oh how I want to be a part of it, New York, New York

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."

This verse was what the sermon was about this morning in church, and I can't help but be enlightened with this as my first audition in NYC is coming up this week. I was always the nervous performer. I let it inhibit me, hold me back. I never believed in my abilities that God has blessed me with. But then I found a peace after I went into an audition and gave up all anxiety and was cast as a leading role. I realized, why be nervous? How can you ever show the casting directors that you are what they want for that role if you don't perform up to your full potential? I was holding myself back. But this is only in relation to local community and regional theatre. My first audition in NYC is nerve-wrecking, and while I was trying to maintain my new philosophy, I was still finding some nerves surrounding the whole event. The flights, the taxi plans, the right song choice. But this passage reminded me this morning that I do not need to be anxious about anything. Mainly because I know that regardless of the outcome of my audition, God has a plan for me. If I don't land this gig, it wasn't in his plan. That is what reminds me that it isn't sad or because I'm lacking talent. It's simply because the big man upstairs has a different plan for me. And that, THAT I can handle. 

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