Magic Life Ball

Eleanor Roosevelt once said, "the future belongs to Those who believe in the beauty of their dreams". Sometimes I wish that the magic ball that we all used to shake and ask about future first kisses and high school graduations really worked. We are taught when we graduate from high school, we can be anything and do anything we put our minds to. We all have the ability to be amazing. The irony behind this thought process though is that if we are ALL striving to be the best, are we ever truly standing out? And just when you begin to think you really have it all together and feel you stand out, someone either next to you or half way across the country is already 5 steps ahead of you. While humility is important and "humbling", does there ever come a point where it has the ability to hold you back? And what if it holds you back from doing the most amazing thing of your life? It amazes me also that we are all on our way to achieving greatness, but how no one person takes the same exact road there as the other. Then the question really becomes, who defines what greatness really means?

I think we define what our greatest potential is. It is that inner feeling that everyone is born with. But no two people have the same inner feelings. So how is it that in a world with so many people with so many different agendas we are still able to form relationships? Or is that also linked in selfishness- make a connection that in the long run may benefit you?

As a student about to graduate with an undergrad degree in something completely useless to what I now want to do with my future, I find myself asking all kinds of questions. Going back as a post-bacc student isn't easy. While it may have its benefits, it doesn't necessarily feel the greatest sitting in classes with freshman who are fresh out of high school at 23. Do I really want to spend the next 6 years in school? Why not stop now? But then my mind opens the other flood gate and thoughts of being average and not living out my dream give rise to the nervous system that has learned to concentrate itself in the middle of my stomach.

But I find relief in this nervous and frightened feeling, as it seems to answer all the questions and I am reminded of how worth it those 6 years are. Will giving up my dream now be best? Well, thats like asking if I never made it to the top of Kili would I not have been upset....duh. As Eleanor Roosevelt once said, "Do one thing everyday that scares you".